With the self-isolating continuing here in California those of us not on the front lines in essential businesses continue to spend most of our time at home. I have noticed I am getting a little loosey goosey in my attire of late as are many of my neighbors. This morning I noticed my neighbor across the street putting his trash out in his boxer shorts. When he became aware of me also dragging my bin to the curb, rather than hiding behind his trash can or looking embarrassed, he waved and struck up a conversation. Hello? The other day I was out front watering when I noticed my neighbor on the right coming around from her back yard. Normally the woman is well put together, but that day she was wearing purple yoga pants with an oversized lime green tee shirt and flip flops with a strap flapping that had seen better days. When I waved hello she covered her mouth, but not before I noticed she had neglected to put her teeth in. No judgment here, Samantha. I get it, I really do.
As I said, I’m not doing much better. There’s something freeing about knowing no one is coming to visit and you’re not going anywhere yourself. I have adopted this “manana” attitude. If my hair has begun to part like the red sea in the back or stick up like a cockatoo on the top, I can convince myself it has at least another day or two of wear before I need to dust off the shampoo bottle under the bathroom sink and put things back in order. Yesterday I caught my reflection in the mirror and I have to say it wasn’t pretty. Now it is just the cat and I sharing space, and though the cat is content as long as there is kibble in her bowl and a treat or two forthcoming, one does have her pride. There I stood with my naked face, hair askew, in pink socks with green watermelon slices on them, gray jogging shorts with a notable bleach spot center front, and a tee shirt with “In Dog Years I’m Dead” emblazoned across the front given to me on my fiftieth birthday. Should I fall and hit my head, is this really the way I want to be found? Since I am dressed exactly the same way this morning, I believe the answer here is “works for me”.
My hair dresser sent me a text yesterday, the salon is closed for at least another three weeks and then the reopening date is uncertain. Apparently they are researching doing hair outside. Now that I find interesting. Ladies with hair dye slapped on their roots or wrapped in tin foil seated out in the parking lot waving at passing cars. It is an image I may have to learn to embrace.
In an effort to keep my mind occupied I looked for a movie to rent last night. Seems all my favorite TV shows have been cancelled so I was looking for something exciting to watch. The first ON DEMAND movie I looked at was $20.00 to rent. Whoa. What happened to the $5.99 movies I thought were kind of pricey? Does somebody show up at the door for the $20 selection with a tub of popcorn, a jumbo box of Junior Mints and a large Pepsi? Reminds me of going to sports arenas. Rick and I went on our first date to a Sharks game in San Jose. Sharks, for those of you less than enthusiastic about sports, are the hockey team for that area. Growing up in Nova Scotia hockey is a game I have some familiarity with so I was looking forward to going. The Sharks were playing the Canucks, a team out of Vancouver, so I got to root for my homboys. Yay. On our way in we stopped at one of the concession stands to get something to eat to take to our seats. Two hot dogs and two beers came to nearly $30. No wonder they can pay players these off the charts salaries. Whew. I’m going to buy up all the hot dogs at Costco and stand outside the stadium and sell them for half price, say $4, and still make a tidy profit.
So, TV not exciting, house cleaner than it’s ever been, hair put off until a week from next Tuesday I turned my attention to my creative side. My daughter and I are working on a book series together. She writes in this case, and I’m providing the illustrations. We have just completed the first book and are beginning to work on the second. These are children’s books with a recurring theme presented with different characters and scenarios. When we get the first one published I will share for those of you who are interested. Art is something I’ve put on the back burner for a while. With Rick being sick for several years there wasn’t really the opportunity to do much on the side nor the inclination. Nearly two years has passed since he died, and I find myself beginning to reopen again and the pricklings of interest in everything I love returning to my nerve ends.
Someone asked the other day, “Why do you write?” I answered, “I write because the stories bubble up in my head, and I need to get them out.” Sounds kind of sophomoric but that is why I write. If no one read what I wrote, it might be less gratifying, but I know I would write nonetheless. I am compelled to for whatever reason and have been since I was young. Always growing up I had a diary or a journal. My meanderings were far more childlike and probably (or hopefully) sillier than what I write now, but I can remember reaching for my diary every night before turning out the light. Kids these days, I don’t suppose have diaries anymore. Guess I am an old dog who enjoys holding the book in my hand and turning the pages. I say that, but here I am tapping away at this blog on my laptop. Hah. Do as I say, not as I do.
Luckily I am a human to whom being solitary is not a death sentence. I can be alone with myself for some time before needing either some company or something to occupy my time. Thankfully, I have any number of hobbies I enjoy which helps to keep my mind engaged as well as my body. Exercising, aside from walking which I do every day, is now part of my daily routine. I’m not a fan. Always I have hated going to the gym. In my twenties I went three times a week. You could have bounced a quarter off my abs. These days if you put a quarter on my tummy you’d have to send a team in after it. This is not true actually. I am rather a thin being, but I haven’t done a crunch or a sit up since Reagan was in office. Recently this situation has changed because currently I am going to physical therapy for my spine. Apparently, along with the other aging body ailments, my bones are getting a little less dense. This has caused a lower back situation which requires some strengthening of my “core”. My PT, Dan, is a young man I would guess to be about thirty, with bounding enthusiasm for his job and endless ideas of ways to torture one’s body. Good Lord. Yesterday he slapped weights on my ankles and then had me lie in a variety of contortionist positions while moving my legs in unnatural positions. I asked him if he enjoyed inflicting pain on his victims, to which he replied, “I don’t hate it”. Sadist.
I have also been doing some meditating and reading some uplifting spiritual books. Helps me keep my well-being at a maintainable level.
So, today I have work on my schedule which is a good thing. Keeps me off the streets and in my watermelon socks. Have a good one. Hold the good thoughts and dance with the cat if you must. Talk soon.